How to Avoid Turning Into a Sanctimonious Gremlin
The ability to catch yourself mid‑transformation and slam the brakes on before the fangs come in isn’t as fun as putting the self-righteous on blast. BUT, it’s probably a healthier choice
Carl Jung: "Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves." (This speaks to how the traits we vehemently hate in others are often unacknowledged parts of our own shadow self).
There’s a dude who lives in Oklahoma who is a real piece of shit work. I detest and have no respect for him. Shortly after I came out in 2015, he took it upon himself to “hand me over to Satan” and to give me a “final warning” before declaring that I was going to hell.
Me texting Lucifer Morningstar at *666: “Do you know Mr. Sanctimonious Gremlin from OKC?”
LM: “👿🔥🔥🔥👿 I tell my inner circle I don’t know him (to build on my Father of Lies rep) but I quietly respect his work.👿🔥🔥🔥👿”
Me: love that you used the word “penchant”
LM: Tanx, stop texting me…
Back to the story…
I was so mad at Mr. OKC, that I rebuked his curses and prayed they would return to him seven-fold. I really wanted to see him crawling through the Oklahoma dust as all the negative energy he generates came crashing down on him with the “sudden destruction” he declared would happen in my life.
Yes, he really said that too.
As, I was slowly turning his life into a gay themed Stephen King novel in my mind I said to myself, “Self, what a horrible train of thought. You are no better than he is; one sanctimonious gremlin inspires another. Stop it!”
My higher self, and/or Holy Spirit (both?) pulls no punches. In that moment that was the very last though I wanted to hear running through my mind. But it did stop me in my tracks and ended the horrible reverie.
The truth is, as God as my witness, I really don’t want Satan to crawl up out of hell and drag Mr. OKC down into it. I don’t want destruction and humiliation to visit him. I want him to stop. I want him to accept God’s LGBTQ+ creation as equals. I do want him to learn difficult lessons because that is the ONLY possibility (that I am aware of) of breaking through his hatred and bigotry masquerading as love and godliness. I truly want that to happen without humiliation or destruction to him.
Simply, I want him to repent which, at its root, means to change his mind.
Don’t get me wrong. I still absolutely detest the asshole man. I just don’t want to become him by cursing him. There’s enough of that going on in the world.
::: sigh ::: So yeah, I still detest Mr. OKC. But he doesn’t get to live rent-free in my soul. I have lots of better things to do–live my life, love my people, and occasionally texting Lucifer Morningstar for insights into sanctimonious gremlins.
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